Deep center and excitement
I had a process work session with Gary today, and I noticed how there was a sense of deep center and excitement.
The belly awakening, the endarkenment, gives a sense of a deep, rich, dark, silent earthiness and fullness everywhere, yet also centered in the belly.
And it allows whatever else to happen, including the more flighty and light excitement that comes when exploring some of these things in words and ideas, especially when talking with someone who shares the excitement about it.
In the past, there has always been the swing of a pendulum between excitement and "going up" and a sense "going down". I went up, then down, as if to compensate for it, and the other way around.
This time, after the endarkenment and the dropping into alive luminosity, both are there simultaneously. Easily. Effortlessly.
There is the deep dark rich infinite ground. A womb holding it all. Deeply silent.
And there is the flights into excitement and ideas and conversation within this deep darkness and silence. The silent darkness is there as a context for it, and also there before and after.
A wonderful experience: finding that larger whole of light and dark, of head and belly, of ground of form and form, of yin and yang, feminine and masculine.
During the enlightenment, seeing all as Spirit, as awake emptiness and form, there was of course the seeing of forms as empty, of the ups and downs as empty luminosity. And there was a silence in the midst of it all. But this is different. This has a different depth and richness to it. It is a different dimension of being.
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