I informed on a central, powerful and influential man, with enough information to have him put away for life. His friends were after Jen and I, and we did our best not to be found.
We lived in a beautiful terrased apartment complex, and had moved from one top level apartment to another a few weeks before. His henchmen had broken into our old apartment around noon the same day, only hours after I had informed and the head crook put away. Unfortunately, our names and the number of our new apartment was listed at the ground level, and they had seen it and would come back.
The apartment or building (?) complex was up on a hillside, in Mediterranean style white-washed stucco, and had a beautiful and expansive view. Many interesting characters lived there, including the head teacher at the Breema Center and many artists and musicians.
A while before all this happened, we had invited friends and neighbors over to a party in our apartment that afternoon. They all arrived and enjoyed themselves, with much music, food and dancing. But Jen and I were concerned, planned what to do next, and we also informed our friends that they may be in danger just by knowing us. We knew our friends and family may be in danger, as harming them was one way the crooks could harm us.
Early in the evening, the party disbanded and Jen and I left the apartment, taking all our personal belongings with us - especially anything could give more information about us, our families or our friends.
There was a sense of nobody there who could substantially help us, not even the police. There was also a sense of foreboding, and of dread and terror. I said at one point "this is going to change our lives forever."
There is a lot of things going on here, and I am not even sure where to start.
Some things that comes up for now:
Making beliefs into crooks
There was a clear sense of the head crook as representing beliefs, especially as I have worked on exploring beliefs so much lately through various forms of self-inquiry. The dream reminds me of something I am already aware of (although obviously not enough): I am making beliefs into criminals...! In my own mind, I make beliefs into criminals, someone to be locked away for good. And the chief criminal is of course the belief in the idea of I.
Seeking realization very easily makes anything apparently hindering realization into an Other, and even into an enemy or a crook. And this of course is just another way to create and reinforce a split, a duality, an I and Other.
The dream is reminding me of this. If I am too attached to the light, the dark will not go away, and it may even take a sinister appearance and go after me - to the point of killing me, as representing the dualistic attitude.
(Less importantly, the dream says that the head crook has been informed on and put away for good. What I have made into the chief crook here is the sense of I, the belief in the idea of I, and I have certainly spent a good deal of time informing on him, doing my best to put him away for life...!)
Embracing the light and the dark
I did a quick Process Work explorations of this, using vector work.
The two main elements in the dream is the criminals and our beautiful life in the apartment building.
The line of the criminals is dark, has a heavy and ominous feeling, and goes to the north-northwest (sunset).
The line of our life in the apartment building, with the nice expansive view and artists and the head Breema teacher, is light and luminous, and goes to the east-northeast (sunrise).
And the line that combines them both, embraces the dark and the light, the shadow and the conscious identity, heaven and earth, crooks and saints, the endarkenment and the enlightenment.
Getting the general idea is one thing, and working on the specifics of it, over and over, in always new ways as it shows up in life, is another.
Fear when shifting (or letting go of) identities
Another aspect of all of this may be the fear that comes up when we shift, or let go of, identities. Who am I if I am not ... (a belief in an idea)? How will my life look without it? Will I be able to function? It is only natural that fear comes up as we reach this threshold, and that some terror may come up immediately after it has been crossed.
I let go of this identity. Won't something terrible happen? Isn't the sky going to fall? Am I not going to be struck by a thunderbolt?
Invitation to a deeper shift
The dynamics of this whole process, played out in the dream, is very typical. It is the experienced struggle of light and dark, and the process of integrating them both in our lives, in always deeper ways.
It is a process that leads up to realized selflessness, and one that - if we are open to it - is ongoing even after realized selflessness.
It can always deepen and be more inclusive. It can always be lived more fully. There is always more "its" in this human self that can be made into a "me" and "mine". And there are always me and mines that can be deepened, explored in new ways, lived in more full and inclusive ways.
Before and after realized selflessness, our human self can continue to heal, mature, develop, and continue to own and embrace "its" and made them more fully and deeply into "mine".
It is just part of the game, part of the infinite creativity of Spirit, part of the unfolding and evolution of Spirit in its form aspect.