Just one anchor
In exploring the sense of I, I notice how there is often just one little anchor there, one last refuge for the sense of I.
There may be a sense of all content as God's will, as happening on its own. And at the same time, there is still a belief in the idea of I, now placed on an imaginary observer of this stream of form.
When I explore this, I notice that there this sense of I is often placed on some sensations in the head area, and that is all. As if these sensations were the subject...! They too arise among the forms, just as any other form, within time and space, coming and going.
So it gets multi layered. There is a genuine experience of the stream of form as God's will and happening on its own, absent of I. At the same time, there is still an attachment to the idea of I as a segment of all of this, now placed on a very limited set of sensations in the head area.
Together, there is the familiar sense of Self, as the Ground of seeing-seen, and self, as an observer somehow set apart from this, hidden away, placed on some sensations as a last anchor.
All that is needed is to notice this, to allow it to be seen. And then there may be one other anchor, and maybe another, and maybe another, until it all unravels.
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