Before falling asleep last night, I explored further how sensations are used as anchors.
- I noticed how a sense of searching and looking was associated with slight movements of the eyes (even when they are closed.) Combined with a sense of a separate self, it creates a sense of "I am searching" or "I am looking". Belief in idea of separate self + searching/looking + slight eye movements = "I am searching."
- The same seems to happen with thoughts. Thoughts were associated with slight movements of the throat (as if speaking) and combined with a sense of a separate self it becomes "I am thinking". Belief in the idea of a separate self + thoughts + sensations in throat area subtly mimicking speaking = "I am thinking."
- A sense of a sweet atmosphere was associated with the sensation of air coming in and passing over the roof of the mouth.
- A sense of a separate self was placed on various sensations in the throat, neck and (inner) mouth area. Whenever I looked at the sensation it was currently placed on, the sense of a separate I was disengaged from that sensation, and automatically placed on another sensation in a slightly different area of space.
The conglomerate, which looked so convincing as a whole, falls into its separate parts. They are recognized as distinct from each other.
Sometimes when I do this, the conglomerate creating the appearance of a separate self falls away. It pops, revealing Big Mind, headlessness, awake emptiness and form clearly absent of any separate self anywhere. Last night (and for the last few days) it remains, just shifting to similar sensations nearby. Both are of course fine - equally interesting to explore in their own way.