Currently, I seem to be experiencing something that is similar to the tail end of phase four (previous postings). There is a great deal of fluctuation between despair and of finding myself fluid between my human self and Big Mind in a completely unremarkable and ordinary way. There is a good deal of lack of interest - and sometimes aversion - when I see people at phase three. It seems so immature. And yet, I also see the beauty of it and know how exciting it is from own experience.