What it comes down to: seeing what is already more true Tuesday, March 20, 2007 |
So when we start letting go of some of the identities that I described in previous posts, what is left? What, if anything, is revealed?
For me, it has to with simply seeing what is already more true for me, in immediate experience, without knowing in advance what I will find or am looking for, and doing it for its own sake.
If I think I know what I'll find, I am creating another box for myself. I have an agenda. Receptivity to what is really there goes out the window.
If I do it for some other motive, to find release, to get rid of discomfort, to get somewhere, then I am creating yet another box. Again, there is an agenda there. And again, receptivity - or even interest - in what is really there, goes out.
Thinking I know what to find, and doing it for a particular result, is just another way for me to limit myself, to box myself, life, existence, and even God, into a far smaller space than where it already is. It may look safe for a while, but is in the long run nothing but a dead end.
I think I'll get something or somewhere by doing it, but all I am doing is boxing myself in. Staying put.
What it all comes back to, and down to, is doing it for its own sake. I engage in inquiry, for the sake of doing inquiry. I engage in headlessness, for the sake of headlessness. I am with experiences, for the sake of being with experiences.
And seeing all the parts of me that is not doing it just for its own sake, is part of it as well. Allowing even that. Being with even that. Seeing even that, as what is, right here and now. For its own sake.
Labels: being with, beliefs, for its own sake, getting somewhere, identification, identity, inquiry, practice, process
