In looking at my own path, I recognize a pattern (which is pretty obvious) that is similar to what I have heard from many others...
- First, a normal life. I was an atheist and very science oriented. For me, this lasted until my mid-teens.
- Then, an awakening. For me, it came out of the blue, and although intense also amazing and amazingly wonderful.
- Then, a dark night, as awful and the previous period was wonderful,
- And then, the Ground, finding oneself as the Ground of all of this, the play of form.
At times, it is a painful process. And at times, with a sense of ease and even bliss. But there is always the same ground, the same void it is all coming out of, the same void within it, the same void it is happening to.
And after having gone through the extremes of ups and downs, the amazingly wonderful and amazingly awful, I am ready for the Ground. The Ground allowing it all. The Ground of emptiness that cannot be reduced to anything else. The Ground which is the nothingness allowing all things.