Profoundly ordinary
During the initial awakening (in my teens) where many of the things happening now happened in a more dramatic way, there was both a realization that all is God, and also a sense of how remarkable it was... which seems to indicate that the final veils of a sense of I had not been seen through.
Now, there is just a profound sense of ordinariness about it, of how unremarkable it is, and also a deeply felt sense that this is just the middle ground, an early middle ground... There is infinitely further to go in the areas I write about here, and obviously much further to go in all of the other areas of life.
Seeing this brings a more genuine humility at all levels... A humility that comes from seeing things more realistically, and not only see it, but also deeply feel it in the body, and love it.
And some of the things to see, feel, and love is that...
- All already is God, so in the absence of Other there is not much room for pride or arrogance, nor for a sense of inferiority.
- At my individual level, there is infinitely further to go in maturing, developing, exploring, discovering, in all areas of life.
- There are many, many areas I, as an individual, am not very well developed in, compared to where many are at today.
- And everything I see in here is also out there, and the other way around, at my individual level. They are there at least as seeds, possibilities, and often far more fully bloomed.
It is deeply sobering, and even shakes me to the core... shakes up everything not aligned with this... everything formed within a context of separation and ideas of better and worse.