Suction, Emptiness & Surrender
I did a Process Work session with myself on a combined feeling of (a) gripping on my shoulders and (b) a sense of emptiness in the stomach/solar plexus region. The gripping has a sense of pushing to it as well, having me lean forward and slouch a little. And the emptiness has a sense of void and suction to it.
Going into it further, I see that the gripping/pushing is pushing me into the emptiness, the void, in the stomach region. I become the gripper/pusher, and want him (my usual identity) to vanish into the emptiness there. And as the void, I see that I pull him into me - allowing him to vanish completely in emptiness.
Going into this vanishing in/as the void, there is first a sense of trepidation, and then tremendous relief. There is a full surrender here, a full letting go, a full vanishing of any resistance - including the resistance of wanting to be someone or something. Everything is let go of. Nothing is left.
And this emptiness then turns into fullness, the fullness of this human self and the rest of the world as it is, although now with an absence of resistance - including the resistance of having any particular identity. Surrender to what is through absence of resistance and identity.
There is a sense of tremendous freedom here. A freedom of allowing everything to be just as they are. A freedom of not having an identity as someone or something. A freedom from resistance.
Labels: emptiness, process work, surrender