Oscillations
It seems that I am oscillating between a sense of "I" and realization of no "I" these days.
After Joel's talk earlier today, and through applying some of Douglas Harding's experiments, there was a shift into an immediate realization of "no I" again.
As Douglas Harding says, the difference is similar to that of a closed fist and an open hand. One is a contraction and blocks (and used to punch!), the other is open for the whole world.
Another way of describing it is as a field of consciousness and its manifestations - with the same content as before. There is everything arising from within this human self (sensations, feelings, emotions, thoughts) and everything arising from outside this human self (other humans, the room, sounds and so on), and it is a seamless field with no center nor any contraction anywhere.
When there is the "story of I" as Joel calls it, there is a sense of contraction in this field - around this human self. When the story of I is revealed as just a story, the field is revealed as seamless, with no center, and with no contraction anywhere. It is wide open for the whole world.
I went to our interim deeksha meeting tonight, and experience the deeksha energy as a field as well. It arises everywhere in space, as a field.
Labels: realized selflessness, sense of I